Looking Ahead (More Geek Persecution)

[Harald Koch]

(http://slashdot.org/features/99/05/03/0518209.shtml)
Hope In The Hellmouth: Looking Ahead

Posted by JonKatz on Monday May 03, @10:00AM EDT
from the best-of-times,-worst-of-times dept.

The bad news was that countless geeks and nerds were hassled,
"counseled" and sent home from school last week for looking odd or
saying what they thought.  Geek Profiling was epidemic. The good news
was that there was an extraordinary sense of community on the Net and
Web last week, and that the word got out, big time. The "Voices From The
Hellmouth" were heard and quoted on some of the country's most
influential mainstream media, just as many of you had hoped for. You did
good. And a whole new stream of messages came in, many hopeful, positive
and looking ahead Beyond the Hellmouth. They ranged from starting a Geek
Church to offers of help from kids, parents, and teachers.

There was bad and good news from the Hellmouth last week. The national
hunt for oddballs did, in fact, become a hysteria. Many journalists,
parents, educators and politicians chose to blame the Net and computer
games rather than face the much more complex and unwelcome messages
coming from Littleton.

Things turned increasingly ugly, for geeks and oddballs, as teachers,
administrators, reporters and peers sometimes made them feel like
potential murderers.

Kids by the hundreds were sent home, ordered into counseling, sent to
special classes, lectured, suspended, expelled and ostracized for
thinking differently and being different. Many of these messages are
harrowing.

"My school has locked down," e-mailed Josh late last night from
Colorado. "The four days that I wasn't too depressed to go to school I
was patted down by the police and was taunted by the "jocks" and
faculty! The morale of my friends and I were so low that you couldn't
get a worm to crawl under it. The counselor called me to her office. She
asked me If I had ever played Doom or Grand Theft Auto, and I told her
that I had. Then I was sent home. Crazy man, this just shouldn't be
happening to a normal nerd like me."

It was happening to lots of normal nerds.

But there was good news from the Hellmouth, too.

The Web suddenly became a place, not just for software and start-ups,
but for testimony. Educators and pundits kept telling us that schools
are fine, that the real problem was violence online, on TV and film, in
games. But geeks used the Internet for the first time to speak over the
heads of institutions in a powerful, unfiltered way. Their stories were
irrefutable.

On the usually diverse and quarrelsome Internet, there was something
approaching unity and a sometimes enthralling sense of community.

One reporter asked me if I had any messages for parents. I didn't, but
the thousands of kids and former kids e-mailing me did: instead of
blocking computer games or the Net, support your kids and their culture,
and work to make your local school more humane, creative and responsive
to the many students who chose individualism.

Oddballs, nerds, Goths, geeks and other so-called misfits seemed to
ground one another after Littleton. They told and traded stories and
seemed to take some comfort in the realization that they were a new kind
of nation.

And while most mainstream media continued to bombard the country with
disturbing images of grief juxtaposed with wildly irresponsible
finger-pointing, and to disseminate the most thoughtless and inaccurate
stereotypes about computing, gaming, the Net and the Web, and Goths, a
growing number of journalists showed that it's also simple-minded to
stereotype all reporters as hostile and clueless.

My apologies to those reporters -- especially some working for National
Public Radio, the San Jose Mercury, the New York Times, the Boston
Globe, the Chicago Tribune, Charlotte Observer, the Los Angeles Times,
the Washington Post and the San Francisco Chronicle - who looked beyond
the hysteria. They worked hard and rooted out and exposed some of the
worst excesses of "geek profiling" going on all over the country.

Defying conventional wisdom and sometimes risking their editors?  wrath,
these reporters - many of whom were young and are online -- gave voice
to geek kids under siege. In dribs and drabs, the other side of the
story began to trickle out, filtering not only through the press but
through the stunning, rapidly evolving connective power of the Web
itself. Your stories made their way into homes, schools and media
offices all over the country.

So congratulations to those of you who had the courage and good will to
post messages to me and the site, and to begin writing a new history for
geeks and nerds and for the Net.

Some of these stories from Slashdot.org ultimately were broadcast via
MSNBC.com, ABCnews.com and Cnn.com and NPR and are being quoted in
influential newspapers; they continue to circulate. Sunday, the San Jose
Mercury reprinted "Voices From the Hellmouth" on the front page of its
opinion section. You were heard. You did some good.

I heard from dozens of teachers and school administrators whose students
asked them to read your (and my) Slashdot writings. Some parents were
surprised as well.

"What a stunning experience," e-mailed Kathy, "to read these very
painful messages on Slashdot - my son gave me your columns to read --
and to suddenly really that one of them was from him. May he forgive
me... I knew how unhappy he was, but on some level, I guess I just
didn't want to face it. I bought the notion that it's just part of life
in high school.  What a strange new world that I should get this
awareness from a website.  Monday, I have an appointment with his
principal. It's time for somebody aside from Jason to feel the heat."

"These kids are heroes for speaking out," wrote Mr. H, a school
principal in San Diego, California. "For what it's worth, I passed these
columns and the responses out at a faculty meeting. The teachers were
shocked, but they also - unanimously - agreed they were reading some
painful truths and were determined to respond. We all went home and got
on our own or our kids? computers to read these stories from the
Hellmouth ourselves.  Speaking as one school administrator, I want to
say lots of us got into this business to help, not hurt kids. I hope you
can make that point.

"We have work to do.

"But some of us hear you, loud and clear. Kids, if you have suggestions,
make them. The good administrators and teachers will hear them, even if
they don't seem to. The bad ones'well, you'll be no worse off."

By this weekend, my personal e-mail had probably topped 6,000 e-mail
messages chronicling a tide of misery, alienation and exclusion in the
country's schools. Slashdot received several thousand more messages,
many of which were posted on different threads, but the site had to cut
off some posts each day due to the volume.

Meanwhile, scores of sites popped up where geek students and survivors
could tell their own stories. The tales could go on forever, here and
elsewhere, but they've made their point.

While horror stories continue to pour in, a number of these messages
were positive, helpful and forward looking, evoking a world beyond the
Hellmouth:


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>From "Youth Cry", from Lord Kinbote:

I have decided to start a Campaign towards fighting for the youth to be
heard in the world as individuals:

Youth Cry.

Every day I go to school wishing for it to be different. Wanting a place
for hope, a place to learn, a place without hate, and a place where
being different isn't so wrong. But instead I find myself trapped in a
prison of conformity. They tell me how I should be just like everybody
else, how I should play their sports, how I should join their clubs, and
how I should give up everything I have to be like them.

?it's time to let our ideas run free in the world and not be scared of
the ridicule of being different. I ask you to stand up and shout your
cry now, the cry you've held in all your life, but never let out because
you were too afraid. Wear this ribbon on your sites around the world to
help put out the blaze...

(The banner may be obtained from
http://innerspace.hypermart.net/youthcry.html for use on pages.)


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The Church of Geeks, from Mark:

Surely if [you] founded the ?Church of Geekdom, geeks in schools will be
protected by the existing laws? Hardly practical but maybe another stick
to beat the administration with, and a way to underline the fact that
it's a (peaceful) way of life.


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Call To Arms, from Bojay:

With all the commentary and what-not surrounding the whole debate, I
think the time might be right to issue some kind of call to arms for
geeks. Most of us are pretty, well, non-political about issues. I think
if we're going to be running this country's infrastructure, and building
communications world-wide, we ought to have a say. Which brings me to my
second point - why can't we form a special-interest group? Over 1500
people have commented (some fiercely) about this. 99% of them think
school was hell. Why not form a SIG to address "geek rights"? If you
have any pointers, or some people you know who think like-minded, let me
know. I'd like to start working on something that /will/ make a
difference, not just a stir.


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I'm Going To Speak Up, from JD:

There's a school board meeting next Wednesday, and you can bet that I'm
going to be there, speaking on this very subject'I wish they had the Web
when I was a little younger. A community is a good thing.


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>From Turned In:

I can understand where a lot of people are coming from on this.  I am a
'freak' and 'goth'. I don't even know how I got the Goth label since I
never wear black (I usually wear colorful outfits), don't like Marylyn
Manson, and am an overall happy person. People seem to think I'm weird
because I listen to Bjork and like Linux. Also, people (wrestlers, so I
don't give them much credit) think I'm going to blow up the school. Why,
you might ask? Well, because I am taking French, I dyed my hair, and
(here's the clincher) I have a unibrow! So now unibrow = unabomber.
Everyone watch out for that extra hair, it could be the difference
between normal and serial killer?

Again, thanks for giving 'freaks' a place to be heard.

Fight Back With Jedi Mind-Tricks, from Geek Girl:

I am one of the misfits- a Girl Geek, if there was such a person. I got
abused horribly by the jocks like the guys did, but it was worse in some
ways as a woman because of the sexual element. ... I never considered
doing violence to my tormentors- although my desire to defeat them led
me in a roundabout way to the study of the occult- where I learned
instead to rule myself. (Yes, there is a good side to the occult, if you
can get past all the BS.)

Now, I understand how Jedi Mind Tricks really work, and when I have to
have a run-in with a jock sort (they live in a time warp, growing
potbellies and kids, but never truly maturing) I remember how
weak-minded they are, and whop them with a bit of good old verbal and
mental Aikido.


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I AM ALONE, by Robert Sterling:

I am alone

beholden to no one

I need no one

I do not care

if I or anyone else

exists

Nor do I care what

others think

what they want or

how they feel

I am alone

And now I can laugh

and that is good

for I was not

previously

programmed

to do so

Copyright 1999 Robert Sterling


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Queen of Peace seeks Doom Club Competitors:

Hey guy,

Queen of Peace HS in North Arlington, NJ, already has a DOOM club - they
can't find anyone else out there to compete against. Are there any
others? (do they dare announce at this time?), the contact name is
QphsCrocco@aol.com ( Ms. Crocco at Queen of Peace )


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Don't Go Back, by Janus:

I'm a freshman at a California high school, and a geek, and a Goth, and
I don't have to tell anybody reading this what a Hell-week this has been
for me - to the principal's office three times, and my parents have
grounded me for the rest of my sad life, taken Doom, confiscated my
Marilyn Manson CD's?oh well, no point in complaining. I will never quit
or be beaten. I narrowly escaped counseling by bringing in a note from
my minister.

I just want to say to all of you that for all of that, this has been one
of the worst weeks of my life, but also one of the best weeks of my
life, because for the first time in my four-year career as a creative
and hard-working geek, I felt I had some help out there, that there were
people I could go to. And there were actually stories and columns about
me and people like me. I thought for sure nobody cared. So that was
awesome!

Geeks will always fight, because it's their nature, but please don't go
right back to all the flaming and arguing only... For me, and for all of
the young geeks out there, how about it? This could really make a big
difference in my life, and while I'm writing this, five wretched geek
friends are standing right behind me while I type this in... Okay?


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I Want to Listen, From a Teacher:

I am a teacher of high school; seniors in San Jose at Santa Teresa High
School. Many students seek my time as a listener who makes no
judgements. My age [68] may be a factor. Perhaps they look on me as a
surrogate grandfather. When they seem to feel the need of someone to
talk to in confidence, they ask, I listen.

I am worse than novice on The Net. I guess its a hangover from big
telephone bills. However, if you think I can be of listening assistance
for the loners, I will volunteer through you.

I want to be a listener for these kids. Please let me know if I can
assist. calwest@gaird.com


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The Quiet Revolution, from JD in Chicago:

I feel strangely optimistic about this week, as a veteran misfit with
many ribbons and scars. If I hadn't learned how to stand firm while
avoiding confrontation, they might have driven me crazy too. We are
making a quiet revolution, the geeks. You can call it open source or
open music or open whatever'it's unstoppable. All we have to do is not
quit, and eventually, time will come around to us. Or maybe, a better
way of putting it, is our time is coming. Then all of the things we've
suffered won't be in vain.

Was it my imagination, or is the new story that things are looking up in
the Hellmouth even, as Janus suggests, when they seem to have been worse
than ever?